Man, I know it’s nuts for me to care for such thing when my to do list is just getting even more psychotic in Pacivis, college (yes.. yes.. that skripsi of mine…. I know I should do SOMETHING about it IMMEDIATELY but….. *sigh*) and all those mentoring sessions in math and science lessons for high school students. Duh.. I had enough of reality. But this two dimentional guy (yes this SYAORAN) really got me in the mood for life again. Isnt it great???? or am I live in denials????? Whatev..

Back to Tsubasa, you might not know ’bout the story so I’ll give you a short recap. Vale, the story was still bout surealist world of clamp where there is magic and so forth and it’s made by mixing all clamp’s comic character (made by CLAMP) in one single story. The main character was Sakura and Syaoran of CLAMP’s previous works of ‘Card Captor Sakura’ (well, in my own opinion they already are the sweetest couple ever in the world of comic books.. *so kawaii*) and in this story they are also a couple. It is told that he (Syaoran) travelled cross dimensions (if you know there’s a theory about paralel worlds?? This other dimension thing is under that concept) for the sake of getting the scaterred memories of the girl (Sakura) in cost that her memories about both of them (which are a lot since they are each’s first-and-last love) and it’s eventually a hard quest since it’s included lots of battles about good and evil and it’s getting complicated and yada yada yada…. I’m a too bad of a storyteller to tell you the story in an interesting way….

Well, just look at it for your self will ya??? and when you read them you’ll find out why I love the guy and the sequel A LOT.

‘Kay.. I know that fell for a 2D guy is absurd but I really do. It’s not the first and only 2D guy I’ve ever fell for. There are more.. A LOT MORE. Let’s say Shinichi Kudo of Conan, Irie Naoki’s Itazura na Kiss (even though sometimes I cant keep my self form thinking of giving him a huge slap in the face, but he’s still a very sweet guy towards Kotoko and to Kotoko only…. so… ^_^), this Syaoran, and back then in primary school I was MAD about that Mamoru Chiba of Sailor Moon!!

Hahahahahahahahaha….. LOL…. Geezz… now when I think of the last one I really wonder how on earth I once mad about that sailor moon thing. The story was too rediculous… Could you remember that line ”dengan kekuatan bulan akan menghukummu”????? Hahahahahaha….. NUTS! And gosh, how come I can still remember that line?? hahahahahha… ^o^ And what’s more rediculous is that I once in primary school had a crush on a guy just because I thought he looked like the comic character… hahahahaha…. I was so really STUPID… But thanks to the comic until this very moment I can clearly remember names of planets in orderly fashion plus it’s satelite and planetoids. So it’s not really a waste that I was mad about it.. LOL…

At least lately I cant really seperate my ears and my head from her songs. I love her works. And lately I can only sing her “No Air” and “Tattoo” all over again and it’s been over 3 weeks since I first start it and I havent got bored yet. I guess at some point I’ve irritated people around me coz I played the songs over and over again on my laptop in a max volume and I myself sing it so LOUDLY with my not-so-good voice.

Well, I guess I cant upload a thing of Jordin here but her song lyrics that I love so so much below… Watch it guys..

No Air
Jordin Sparks feat. Chris Brown

If I should die before I wake
It’s ’cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no airI’m here alone, didn’t wanna leave
My heart won’t move, it’s incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

(Bridge)
But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
‘Cause my world revolves around you
It’s so hard for me to breathe

(Chorus)
Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air
Can’t live, can’t breathe with no air
It’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there
It’s no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain’t here, I just can’t breathe
It’s no air, no air
No air, air (repeated)

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There’s no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I’m still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don’t know how, but I don’t even care

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It’s no air, no air

(Chorus repeated to fade)

Tattoo

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I’ll get what I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

(Chorus)
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing’s broken
No need to worry ’bout everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
(Just like a tattoo, I’ll always have you
I’ll always have you, I’ll always have you)

I’m sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I’m wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

(back to Chorus)
(Bridge)
If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

(Chorus to fade)

But anyway.. my main poin is i hope by writting it (you know.. things that I suppose to express verbally but I didnt coz I think it might hurt people I care about–such as my friends) I can keep my mental health by expressing (or spitting perhaps) whatever I have in my brain & in my heart that I suppress in front of people.  So.. you guess me right… IT IS PERSONAL.. I mean this blog.. It’s gonna be all about me and my unimportant comment (well, if you compare it to issues such as US presidential election, decreasing world’s oil supplies, climate change, flood or earthquake somewhere in any part of the world, world’s poverty and or starvation, AIDS, etc.) about things… Well, I cant really describe what I’m going to write.. sorry.. but since I cant predict what’s going to happen I guess it’s fair enough.. right??

So.. enjoy yourself coz I’m gonna enjoy mine.. ^_^